LYRICS

Me and the Holy Ghost

Unreleased

I put the car in park, but I don’t dare turn the key

If I get out, I know what awaits me

As much as this hurts

What’s inside is so much worse

And there will be no one else left to blame

So, from now on, it’s just me and the Holy Ghost

I’ve finally made peace with where I deserve to go

The decision was made for me, so long ago

There’s nothing left but me and the Holy Ghost

I packed everything I had, into this car

Ran out on everyone, thought I could hide the scars

But everything I tried to leave behind

Was already killing me from the inside

And there was no one else but me to blame

So, from now on, it’s just me and the Holy Ghost

I’ve finally made peace with where I deserve to go

And I turned my back on those who loved me the most

Now there’s no one left, but me and the Holy Ghost

So, from now on, it’s me and the Holy Ghost

And I’ll carry these scars wherever I go

Until the day when I finally go home

And I live forever, just me and the Holy Ghost

Let the Blood Flow

From the 2023 EP of the same name

When the Angel of the Lord comes

Don’t just take the first born son

Let the blood flow

Let the blood flow

The sons of Adam and all their kin

Spare no soul, leave no wounds to mend

Let the blood flow

Let the blood flow

My son won’t return, that’s what they say

He belongs to them now, so I pray

Let the Blood flow

Let the blood flow

I wanna walk through the fire

Through the smoke of burning flesh

As their blood runs through the streets

Washing their filth into the sea

Clovis, New Mexico

From the forthcoming EP, Talk My way out of everything

As the rain falls down

On this desert town

I think of all you could’ve done

Your life had just begun

That cold winter night that took you away

Whoah, whoah oh

Clovis, New Mexico

Eighty-Four is so lonely at night

West Texas stars are usually so bright

But the pitter patter on my windshield

Keeps perfect time to the way I feel

You live on whenever I listen to your songs

Whoah, whoah oh

Clovis, New Mexico

Chasing the Memory

From the forthcoming ep, talk my way out of everything

Do you wanna crash here tonight?

It’s late, you don’t need to drive

Live in the moment before it’s gone

Lie me down and look in my eyes

I am yours just for the night

The promise of tomorrow is a wasted thought

Is this really happening?

Reality, so unsatisfactory

Nothing’s really happening

I’m just chasing the memory

Carpe diem and leave a good looking corpse

Don’t worry about tomorrow feeling worse

It’ll come if it comes, you can start again

You deserve whatever you want

It’s your life just have some fun

If the bill comes through you worry then

But it was never real

It was just a manifestation

Of how I wanted to feel

If I Was Someone Else

unreleased

I could get up every morning and make you a cup of coffee

Bring the paper in so you could do the crossword in bed

Leave you little notes everywhere so you could think of me

All these things I’d do, if I was someone else

I could promise to love you and protect you for all of my life

And to hold you when you’re lying in that hospital bed

That I would always be true and stand by your side

All these things I’d do, if I was someone else

If I was someone else, we could make a home

If I was someone else, we could lay in a field of stone

If I was someone else, you’d be all I’d ever known

If I was someone else I wouldn’t be alone

I could grow old with a woman I called my best friend

Have something to live for when times got hard

Could look them in the eye and smile and not pretend

All these things I’d do, if I was someone else

Folded Flags

unreleased

The man in the suit and all his friends

Gotta make their money, gotta pay dividends

It don’t matter to them if you grow old

They send their kids to the Ivys

Lord knows they ain’t like me

They’re countin’ on you doin’ what you’re told

I know that you gotta go

Just promise me that you’ll come home

I don’t need no folded flags

Son, if you want to be a hero

You need to come back

When you get back you won’t be the same

Civilian life could drive you insane

Cause ain’t no one’s supposed to see the shit you see

The men and women in DC

Gettin’ rich while our kids bleed

There’s a special place in hell for them in eternity

Home Tonight

from the 2023 ep, Lead a horse to water

I know I shouldn’t drive

But all I gotta do

Is keep the yellow to my left

And the white one to my right

I’m pulling off to the side

To close my eyes for awhile

I’m not coming home tonight

Maybe by the morning light

I’ll be sober enough to drive

I’m living on borrowed time

Every breath is grace

But I keep holding my breath

Thinking I can change my fate

I swear on my life

This will be the last time

I’m not coming home tonight

Maybe by the morning light

I’ll be sober enough to drive

I can’t keep living this way

But I can’t expect you to believe a single word I say

Can’t Take You With Me

from the 2023 ep, lead a horse to water

All I’ve got is love

I know we’re not the same

But all these memories

Have you in the frame

Now you’ve grown so cold

And all you feel is hate

And all you see is darkness

Buried underneath your shame

I can meet you there

I can meet you there

But I can’t take you with me

You lash out at me

You say that I have changed

That I am someone else

And that you’re still the same

I admit that’s true

I’m the one that’s grown

I live inside the love

And you are all alone

I’ll never forget

For as long as I live

But until you want to make peace

I’m sorry to say

I’m walking away

To give my heart release

This Mountain

from the forthcoming ep, talk my way out of everything

I'm gonna dry out on this mountain

I wanna sleep for days under the pines

I want to sweat out all the sin that runs in my veins

On this mountain

Far from the bars that make me feel alive

Far from the girls I lie to every single night

I need to find out what's left of this man who lives inside

On this Mountain

Far from the bars and liquor stores

Far away from everything I love

Maybe I can find some peace high above

On this mountain

I can fight and fall down with the best of them

There's nothing I can't do with a glass in my hand

But I keep thinking I could be a better man

On this mountain

And I want to see the world through sober eyes

Some Days

from the forthcoming ep, talk my way out of everything

Some days I just don’t know if I’ll make it through

But there’s nothing else to do

Some days I hate it here, it’s gotta be better somewhere

But I just can’t bring myself to care

So I’ll just take it one day at a time

It’s all too much

I might break

It’s all too much

Some days

Some days I want to talk my way out of everything

But it won’t stop the pain I bring

Some days it seems like I have nothing to say

It’s hard even to kneel and pray

I just can’t seem to find

A rhythm to this life of mine

I’m just getting tired of feeling sad

Every day

The Evil Inside

from the 2023 ep, lead a horse to water

There’s no such thing as innocence

You were conceived in sin

It’s always been like this

But we think we can change

And find a better way

But we end up back where we began

Nobody’s good

Everyone dies

It’s the evil inside

Your new idea has been done before

Crawl through the window and curse the door

If only you’d never been born you could save the world

A Pretty Good Picture

released as a single, 2023

There were always lots of laughs

Hidden in these walls behind the photographs

But now those days are gone

Along with all the houses that we called home

You got your name in the paper

For the last time

It was a pretty good picture

It’s how I’ll always remember you in my mind

There’s no good reason for me to travel back

We were always family even on different paths

And though I knew this day would come

It still makes me wish there was something I could’ve done

Good with the Bad

from the 2023 ep, lead a horse to water

Sometimes I wanna self-destruct

But maybe that’s just the artist talking

Sometimes I’m just looking for attention

Cause I’m afraid you’ll take off walking

But I’m not afraid to play this part

To get you where I want you to get you into the dark

I’m just pretending that I’m sad

Sometimes you gotta take the good with bad

You know I really mean well

I’m just a broken little boy actin all grown up

I rather burn it all to the ground

Than admit I’m just looking to feel loved

But I’m not afraid to play this part

To get you where I want you to get you into the dark

I’m not pretending that I’m sad

Sometimes you gotta take the good with bad

Smoking cigarettes by your window late at night

I could see right through to the black behind your green eyes

Every sharp word was by design

You set me up just to laugh as the walls closed in on your mine

Protest Song

from a yet to be titled ep in 2024

Darling, why you look so sad?

You’ve got the whole world in the palm of your hand

You can’t seem to walk out of your own grave

Don’t let the sunshine ruin your rainy day

Whips and chains fit in your pocket

You wear your trauma on a chain with a locket

When you can do whatever you want

There’s no one left to fight but you

Die to yourself more every day

There’s no one left to fight but you

You’d walk back to Egypt

For a slice of avocado toast

You’d give up everything you need

Just for one thing that you don’t

You can’t stand out singing your song

Cause the whole damn  world is singing along

This is my protest song

Okay

from a yet to be titled ep, 2024

There’s a new set of rules

No matter what you try to do

The right thing will always be

Whatever I want to do

This is the way it is now

This is okay for me

It’s just not okay for you

You better learn to obey the rules

The winners get to tell the tales

Stand down and behave yourself

It’s the same story you’ve heard before

I’m just the latest hero to wage the war

This is the way it is now

Go inside where it’s cold

Watch people die and enjoy the show

Until the enemy’s gone

You can’t go home

Evil Doesn’t Exist is the Greatest Lie You Can Tell

from a yet to be titled ep, 2024

A congregation of hate

Marches through the streets

Ready for war

Ready to kill everyone it meets

Fueled by personal failures

A desire to watch it all burn

Jealousy is an abusive mate

There’s nothing left of them

Now it’s your turn

There’s nothing to see here

Take off your tinfoil hat

There’s nothing to see here

Don’t question me!

Scream about injustice

From inside your Mercedes

You can only dream of heaven

Inside the gated walls of Hades

There is no fear

When you believe a lie

Martyr yourself

You don’t need a reason why

Evil doesn’t exist

That’s the greatest lie you can tell

You think there’s no way out

But there’s one

Weapon of War (You’re the Greatest)

From a yet to be titled EP, 2024

Consumption, don’t even lift the spoon to your mouth

Digestion, don’t even question what it’s all about

Sedation, if you have trouble keeping it down

Destruction, if it fails, burn it to the ground

Do nothing, that’s your only job

You’re the greatest

You’re the greatest weapon of war

Make yourself sick to brag about your health

Pursue loneliness so you can can feel liberated

Easier to go along to get along

Apathy kills far more people than hatred

Living in the Shadowlands

unfinished

Sometimes, it’s better left unsaid

Just let the past go to bed

There’s nothing wrong with simply moving on

Once the words are out they stay alive

Regrets that’ll keep you up at night

I know it hurts when things have run their course

We never promised from death do we part

This is a temporary state

Living in the Shadowlands

A place where love can turn to hate

Living in the Shadowlands

Don’t mourn the falling of the leaves

Eagerly await the flowers of the Spring

Rest easy, it’s how it’s meant to be

Something has to die for something else to live again

Latchkey

unfinished

It’s easy living outside your expectations

It’s living outside my own that keeps me keeps me wondering what you think of me

Am I even able to figure this thing out?

Or will the second half just go like the first?

Is it even worth it living with this doubt?

Being liked or hated, I don’t know what’s worse

It seemed so simple

Flicking ashes out the quarter glass

Desperately wanting to be loved

And to give the finger to the past

But now it’s mostly in the rear view

And the headlights have began to dim

I feel like we’ve been going nowhere

And the destination is where we’ve always been

We use ten dollar words to talk about things that only cost a dime

The last generation to store our memories in our minds

Getting lost in the war between two sides with gray hair

Sometimes it’s hard to admit, that dad was right when he said “life’s not fair”

Latchkey kids left to figure this thing out

Intertwined

unfinished

I’m not sure that there’s enough inside me

To give you what you deserve

But for as long as God gives us to be

Intertwined I’ll try not to mourn things not yet come

As we can only look back on flowers in bloom

We should appreciate what it took to wilt

To survive the hail

The winds

The blistering Sun

And the weeks without rain

The infestation of insects

The endemic disease

All the things that would devastate us

If not for deep roots

And the grace of the Spirit

Dying of old age

Isn’t for the weak

Like the famous pugilist

After twelve rounds

If you’ve got nothing left

It’s because you gave it all

All the blood

Left on the mat

All the sweat carrying our spirit

From our soul out of our body

Remind me every day

Pain in a beautiful thing

The seed pushes out of its shell

The sprout pushes out of the ground

The flower explodes from the bud

Pain is the means of delivering beauty

The beauty is but a faint reflection

Of a world that used to be

And a time yet to come

Though I sometimes doubt

Because love is never earned

Merely given out of grace

A Grace only borrowed

It comes not from within

But to one without

A method of binding

Two lost souls

Meant to become one

In order to replicate

To grow

To glorify

Yet will remain misunderstood by those who have only felt imitation

And while we may sometimes not quite understand it ourselves

We know what it is because we know what it’s not

It’s not of this world

And that’s what scares me the most

Because nothing else could ever be this

And the thought of living without it

Is like imagining running naked on the savanna

Chased by lions

Still breathing but knowing the air will soon be torn from my lungs

Not if, but when

Not how painful, but how long

But for as long as God gives us to be

Intertwined

We Were Just Kids

unfinished

We walked to the park so you could swing

You told me about the boy who made you laugh

Little moments just to pass the time

Never thinking memories would be all that would last

An innocent mistake you could make a thousand times

We stayed up all night

I talked until the ashtray was full

You told me I shouldn’t smoke

And laughed when I said I know

I remember every detail about you

But I can’t recall how I heard

Memories merged with newspaper stories

My tears making every image blurred

An innocent mistake that could change a thousand lives

We stayed up all night

I talked until the ashtray was full

You told me I shouldn’t smoke

And laughed when I said I know

When your soul was ripped from your body, where did you go?

And why do I still miss you so much after all of these years?

We stayed up all night

You talked until the coffee was gone

I can still hear you laugh

But now I just break down

We were just kids